My Only Love

The harvest moon hung high on the horizon and it’s light clothed us as the nights chill just began to settle in. The porch upon which we sat offered open views to the yard and neighborhood below and while our children dreamt we talked. We gazed into one another’s eyes as best we could in the dim light and we remembered. It is these conversations I enjoy the most. We laughed at the ideas we had when we were young newlyweds with no money and a dream. We had ambition and energy and where we are now is where we always wanted to be. Our voices would crack as we discussed those hard times in life we saw together and those we have lost. More than anything it was the quite conversations we enjoyed. Some moments words can’t suffice. In a single gaze you can look into that person’s eyes and see your children being born, the tears you’ve shared , and the struggles that were fought together. No one else was there to see the tender underside of my life, but she was. In seventeen years the laughs have outweighed the tears and the love we share burns even brighter than the day we exchanged vows and made a promise of forever. Only now, hindsight offers a clearer view of those vows because for seventeen years we have lived them. In the distance a barking dog is heard and the Katydid’s song plays in the background as constant as the ocean’s waves. Her eyes grow heavy from the sleep that is trying to invade. The conversation has gone silent and she takes one more deep breath before she stands to go in. Exhausted from the day it’s time for rest. “Love ya” she says as she kisses my cheek before heading in. “I’ll be in soon” I reply but I can’t stop reflecting. Each memory plays like a film in my mind. What a life we have shared. My only love.

Yellowstone 2014....4000 Miles and a Lifetime of Memories

My life is composed of rhythmically timed events. Long before the sun has even burned the haze from the mountain tops my alarm sounds and the day begins.  Lunch is always from 11:30-12:30 and more times than not I’m in my car by 5:00 and heading for the sanctuary that I call home. How often do you say, “why not”?  To be honest, I say it far too few times.  When my brother-in-law and I added up the costs of an Elk hunting trip out west and we decided it wouldn’t be possible right now, I suggested we do a fly fishing trip to Yellowstone instead.  The costs are far less, we love the fly fish, and the scenery is magnificent. Since he works for a car rental company and can get a sweet deal on a rental, I thought to myself…..”why not?”  I’ve always talked about driving cross country and this would be a great opportunity to do so.

When I told my brother Patrick about our plan he decided he would also like to come along. So the plan was set; three guys, a rented mini-van, and 4000 miles of total driving. Sure, that sounds like a great plan. I won’t bore you with the details of the drive other than to say it was long…..it was very long.  When you have driven and you think you MUST be getting close, you’re not.

We arrived at Roosevelt Lodge around 3:00 p.m. on Sunday.  As soon as the door was opened we realized we may have to rethink our planned sleeping arrangements as the small rough rider cabin certainly lived up to its name.  We were happy to be there and our mind had already switched to fishing so there was little time to debate about the shoebox we would call home for the next four nights. We unloaded our bags into the small cabin and headed out to find some water to fish.  I knew of a spot that was very productive during my last trip to Yellowstone and drove us out to the Lamar River and the pool that was once my honey hole.

We arrived to find the water all to ourselves and we made our way across the sage filled meadow to the stream.  The plan was to squat on this section of the river and wait for a hatch to bring the fish to the surface.   The hatch never happened and we didn’t get so much as a look at any fly we threw.

The next morning we made our way to Park’s Fly Shop to inquire about the streams that were fishing well and to buy some local flies. Pink hoppers seemed to be the order of the day so we paid for our flies and headed out to the Gardner to fish.  We had some trepidation as we made our way down the hill side and a Big Horn Sheep watched our slow decent, but finally we settled in and fished below the high bridge not far from Mammoth.  I had several fish rise to my hopper and one leapt from the water but missed the fly altogether. James struck first when he pulled a beautiful brown from the stream and only a few minutes’ later claps of thunder and strikes of lightning forced us to scale the bank back to the van.  We headed back to our cabin to regroup and allow the storm to pass.

Tuesday morning brought new hope and we were on the water by 10:00.  The Soda Butte meanders through open meadows in the Lamar Valley before it empties into the Lamar River.  Bison roam the meadows and as tame as they appear their cattle like appearance is misleading.  Bison account for the majority of the injuries in Yellowstone to visitors each year.  As the three of us tried to fish a deep run of water a bull bison slowly approached.  He stepped closer and closer through the sage until he was at the water’s edge.  He didn’t stop there.  He proceeded to cross the stream and sent the three of us up the hill like mice running from a cat.  His only intent was to inform us that he was the dominate male.  I think I can speak for Patrick and James when I say, his point was well taken and we concur.   

 

As James paced the bank he noticed a large Cutthroat feeding in a seam of water right beside the bank.  I tied on a size 16 Pale Morning Dunn (PMD) and James guided each cast.  “No, a little more to the right” he explained.  Several casts later and the drift was perfect, the fish rose and took the fly, and my rod bend as he thrashed. Then in a flash he was gone.  Shortly after this I heard my brother Patrick yelling that he had a fish on.  Given this was Patrick’s second attempt at fly fishing I couldn’t have been any happier for him.  We all continued to fish the Soda Butte and the three of us all caught fish.  It was a late day and when we arrived back at the cabin to prepare dinner it was nice to have the smell of fish on our hands. 

That evening we sat on the porch of the Roosevelt Lodge with a stogie, a sip of bourbon, and simply relaxed. The conversation wasn’t about the stresses of work, the worries about our children, and the problems of life.  We talked about the fish we caught and the ones we should have caught and in the cool night air we simple enjoyed each other’s company and shook off the pressures we brought with us. We talked about God’s mercy and grace and we felt alive!

We decided we would do some site seeing and drive to the thermal areas of the park on Wednesday but not before we fished.  At 6:00 a.m. I was awoken by a slight chill in our cabin so I thought I would get coffee going and start the day.  The sun was already shining bright as I made my way to the bath house to get ready for the day.  Eventually Patrick and James gave up any hopes of sleeping in and we were back on the road driving back to the Lamar Valley.  We decided to fish the Soda Butte once again but on this trip we ventured upstream before the stream enters the meadows of the Lamar Valley.  We parked, put on our waders, and added additional layers before heading to the water.  The sky had gotten overcast and I was glad I remembered my fleece sweater. 
 The run of water we settled in was tree lined on both sides and a deep run of water cut its way through the center of the stream. Almost immediately the Cutthroat gave away their position as they fed on small insects on the far side of the stream.  A few casts later and we were all catching fish in this section of the water.  I’m always amazed at the number of fish that can inhabit a small area in a stream.  As we headed down stream to a gently flowing pool the strikes slowed but we managed to continue pulling fish from the water.

We fished until lunch and made our way to the western side of the park and the thermal areas.  It was my first time in this area and I don’t recall a time I have seen more “trout looking” water than the Fire Hole, the Gibbons, and the Madison.  Unfortunately the water temperatures had already risen to an unfishable level but perhaps one day I’ll be back in time determine if these waters live up to their reputation.

Thursday brought our last day of fishing and determined to catch dinner we made our way to Tower Creek for some of the Brook and Rainbow trout its waters held.  It was a warm day and we all decided to wet wade.  I settled in behind a large rock that had created a log dam on this beautiful little stream and within a couple casts I had my first fish in hand.  The small Brook trout looked to be the same as those in the Smokies and I had serious concerns as to whether the entire population was this size.  If they are, I thought to myself, we better come up with another plan for dinner.  A few casts later and I had my first dinner sized fish; a rainbow that fell for the lure of my pink hopper.  Within a quarter of a mile of fishing on this stream we already had enough fish for dinner and the pressure was off.  All other fish caught were bonus fish for fun and this little jewel willingly gave up quite a few fish.  When we had all felt it was time to leave we started taking note of the bushes of wild berries all around us among the deadfall.  I could recognize the wild raspberries but there were two other types that I had never seen.  This entire area would be a berry buffet to any bears that happened to settle in for lunch.  When I am fishing I generally think of nothing but the perfect drift with the perfect fly and a perfect strike.  Perhaps this is a character flaw, but it is also why I fly fish.  On the hike out we were much more “bear aware” and we were all doing our best “HEY BEAR” to alert any bears to our presence.  Luckily we didn’t see any bears and we decided to clean our fish on the stream side before heading back to the cabin at Roosevelt Lodge to cook them.

 Patrick decided one more cast was needed and with it he brought to hand the largest and more vividly colored Brook trout of the day.  Like pioneering men who passed through this land a hundred years earlier we held our chin high as we made our way back to the van with our bounty in our hand as if our families depended on our angling skills for dinner.  James seasoned the fish and started dinner and within an hour we sat in the shade of a tall pine and enjoyed trout that had only hours earlier been swimming in Tower Creek. 

 There is a draw to this place that is unmistakable.  The wildlife you see makes you feel more alive and serves as a reminder that there was a time when the west wasn’t tamed. As we prepared for our last fishing of our trip we decided we would try some of the advice we’d been given on the Soda Butte by two other fishermen and he headed out.

We’d had the joy of catching Cutthroat but now we wanted bigger fish.  So, just as the advice we had been given suggested I scaled the rocks where the stream makes a dramatic turn and I nymph fished with my strike indicator set at five feet.  It was only a few minutes before I missed my first large Cutthroat but when I adjusted to the difference between the current and a strike I was landing fish soon after.  I caught at least six fish from this small steam of water, none of which were less than 16”.  As the sun hung low over and the overcast sky darkened the valley before us, we heard a lone wolf howl on the hill side just behind us.  His howl was answered as to grant us one last memory of what had been an amazing week.

The South Holston (SOHO) In Spring.

    

Russ and I had fished together before in the Smokies but this was an opportunity that I couldn’t pass up.  Russ had insider information on the South Holston and I had always wanted to fish this Tennessee jewel.  I met Russ sometime after 4:00 am at the local Hardee’s parking lot where I was introduced to John and Dave.  We piled into Russ’s Ridgeline and like a shot from a canon we were off.  I remember thinking as we passed the Bristol Motor Speedway how fitting it was to see the speedway because after the two hours in the back seat of Russ’s truck I felt like part of a Nascar team.  We drove to the spot we had been given directions to and suited up.  We waded into the water and right away we began to question either our location or the directions.  We were told to expect ankle deep water but instead we found nearly thigh deep water that was difficult to wade.  This prompted a double check of the TVA release schedule and just as it stated the generators were sluicing minimal waters flows.  Our failure was to look past the generator schedule to the actually flow rate.  The water was still high from the previous night’s release.   

 

We made the best of the situation; walked up to the second bridge and began to fish.  The water was waist deep and choppy and my enthusiasm for this mythical river began to wane.  There were a few pockets of very nice water but there was no activity on or below the surface.  There was a very nice hatch of Sulfurs and still there were no fish rising.  A drift boat moved over an area too deep for us to wade and had several strikes confirming this water actually holds trout.  An hour into fishing this area and Russ finally hooked up and it lifted the spirits of the whole group.  We decided to explore and as we drove down the road we were greeted by pulls off already full of fishermen and cars or private property signs.  We eventually made our way below the dam, picked our spots and fished.  I hooked up within thirty minutes and the trout were very active but finding a fly to interest them was very difficult. 

 I could see other fishermen catching fish but in all I managed one fish and Russ likewise only brought one fish to hand.  It was around 4:00 when we decided we would prepare for the long drive home.  Feeling somewhat defeated and disappointed we drove down river road and headed home.  The pull off areas were now empty and we decided we would try one more spot before calling it a day.  The wading was treacherous due to the amount of water and the slope of the rocks.  Standing on the top of the rocks was a safe bet but the down slope was immediate and any false steps would surely result in waders full of water or worse.  I began to see random splashes of water and realized a light hatch of Hendrickson’s or Light Cahill were coming off.  This was all it took to wake the trout up and I saw large beautiful trout leaping from the water.  It was very technical trying to cast to these locations because there were only small pockets in which to lay the fly in order to get a good drift.  I tied a Light Cahill in size 16 and surveyed the area. I looked down stream and Russ, Dave, and John had abandoned their fly rod but all three were catching large Brown trout on spinning rigs.  Scanning the water before me I would wait for the trout to give away their location and I would cast into the lane where the trout waited to ambush its prey.  The time passed rapidly and for two hours the four of us enjoyed our best fishing of the day.  I began to realize how magical this place must be by drift boat.  The large Brown’s I saw leaping from the water like Humpback whales were out of reach.  They were simply too far to reach by casting and too dangerous to attempt to wade to.  We all managed some nice fish that evening and as we drove back to Knoxville we had all but forgotten the difficultly we encountered most of the day.  Three hours of solid fishing made up for the six hours of disappointment.  This sense of expectancy is what brings the fishermen back to the river’s edge time and time again.      

2012 Year End Review

How many cliché remarks have we heard about time? How it flies, how we can’t buy it, and how it slows down for no one.  2012 is merely a memory and while 2013 lays ahead last year was a great year and I would be remiss not to high light a few of the personal and outdoors highlights of the year.

In February my bothers and I decided to meet with our families in Flat Top, WV for a first time ski trip.  While none of us actually skied the tubing was fun and it was a great weekend with the family.

In March I squeezed in a couple hours to fish the Clinch and what I had told myself would be my last cast I was able to catch this nice rainbow on an olive scud that I tied myself. 

 

In early April the leaves are in full bloom and the spring hatches are in full swing as well.  On April 13^th, Garret, Jim, James, and I made our way to Hazel Creek in the Smokies for a great two days of camping and fishing.

In June I found myself on the Clinch again. While the fishing was slow I was able to pull in this nice 19’ Brown using a 16 bead head pheasant tail.  It was the highlight of every fishing trip I’ve made to local waters.

Soon enough the heat of July was upon us and I used some vacation time to meet up with my brother’s and family on the Outer Banks of North Carolina to hang out at the beach and to take my first deep sea fishing trip.  Although Patrick was ill and not able to fish with us it was certainly a trip that I’ll never forget. 

The beach trip ended and I found myself on the friendly waters of the Clinch once more.  This time my mother and father-in-law were in town to watch our kids so my wife came along.  I wrote on this subject already but I was very proud that my wife was able to cast the line, set the hook, and bring her first trout to hand on this trip.  What a great time we had that morning on the mist covered Clinch River.

On an average Sunday morning my soul was lifted with a joy that is unexplainable.  As I stood above the baptismal pool steps and watched both my children commit their lives to Christ my mind drifted to their first cries and the happiness these two little people have brought an undeserving sinner like me.  Yet even with all of my faults God has loved me and as my eyes try to remain fixed upon the Grace of Christ, so too my children can experience God’s never ending love.  On this day we joined our church and our children joined the body of Christ.

 

Armed with my son’s 20 gauge youth model shotgun, the first weekend of September brought my first dove hunt.  My 12 gauge would not cycle the 2/34’ shells needed for dove hunting so I took the only other gun I had.  I was a treat and I see why so many people say dove hunting is the most fun you can have with a shotgun.  I didn’t limit out, but I also didn’t go home empty handed.

 

As summer gave way to fall we had a combined family trip to Disney World.  Four families all stayed together at the Animal Kingdom Lodge and it was a trip I’ll never forget.  The satisfaction of seeing my nephews and all of my in-laws gathered around the pool enjoying the moment was an awesome site.

November came and my annual deer hunting trip to my brother’s house offered ideal weather conditions for the hunt.  The morning started like most but on this day the wind offered us the advantage and the bucks were moving everywhere.  Several nice deer were taken and my fear was that I would miss another golden opportunity. Donald set me out on a point where the wood line meets the field.  I could hear the dogs turn back and assumed the deer they were chasing had turned as well.  That’s when I saw a nice buck with his head down trying to make a break for the field.  I drew, put a bead on him, and pulled the trigger.  I thought for certain I missed, but as I looked for blood the deer laid not more than 20 yards again.  He may not win any records but for a man enjoying his fourth season of hunting it was like seeing an Elk laying there. I was able to bag another 3 point buck later in the week making it my best effort to date.

November brought a change of the four legged kind as well.  As part of the kids Christmas present my wife talked me into buying them a Chocolate Lab.  Chelsea is a beautiful dog and thus far has made an excellent addition to the family.  I’ve already taken here on a December dove hunt and she loved running at my side through the dove field.  She may be a camping, hunting, and fishing companion but first I have to stop her from eating my house apart from the inside out.

The year of our Lord two thousand and twelve was a magnificent year and I can only hope that 2013 will be a worthy successor.